Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Google, u-hauls and dreams

So, I'm back again. I didn't write anything because I truly didn't have anything positive or interesting to write about in the last couple of weeks. My life seems to be pretty boring right now. I work up to sixty something hours a week and then come home feed-pet-chase the dogs for a bit and then go to sleep. My gym card hasn't been swiped in a few days either. And my books and study guides are collecting dust and/or growing mold. I have this upcoming Saturday and Sunday off. I try to schedule myself a full weekend off out of the month, but sometimes this doesn't happen. If I stay at home I get bored out of my mind and start thinking, and let me tell you, when I am alone and thinking it could lead to many things. I start Googling places where I would like to move, I start calling people I shouldn't be calling for one reason or another, and I remember how things used to be, instead of thinking how things could be.
I've been in Omaha for about two and a half years now. I enjoy this city, but I am still searching that feeling of belonging. I do have it made here. I have a great career, a lot of room to advance, opportunities to further my academics, and a killer home, oh yeah, and let's not forget my new Explorer. I've made very good friends in here and I am truly blessed for that. But somehow there is something missing. My heart tells me that is the fact that I am single and I have no one special to share this with, and my guts tell me that is because I am not in a city that has a direct flight to San Jose, Costa Rica, where my family is. I am not entirely positive on what it is.
Maybe it is a mix of them both. I wish I could pack and move to a city where I could have more chances on ending the singleness and a city where I could be a direct flight away home. But I am not ready to start job hunting, or packing and moving. I've moved so many times in the last eight years that I am packed out. That doesn't count all the friends that I've had to pack or unpack. Let's face it, moving is a bitch. There is nothing exciting about it. Well, of course, unless you had won the lottery and big fat men were u-hauling all your belongings to a great mansion.

1 Comments:

Blogger musicbeing said...

Welcome back sugar.

Whatever you want to do, do it now. Never think about it, whatever's mean tto happen will happen. You don't want to die tomorrow thinking "I should have gone for it"

Chicago has direct flights to everywhere u know...

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